ThiranosTales

And as I remain trapped, A prisoner of my own vows, My own desire to lock in the happiness of others Before my own, One thing remains true. You are my strength, My light, My hope. You chase the demons from my mind. You are the angel on my shoulder, The net to catch me when I fall. You are the chapter in the book of my life In which I get lost, The words dancing off the page, Alighting vividly in my fantasies, Playing with my perception of reality. With you, I can do anything. As the world tries to beat me into submission, Trying to play on its own whimsy, Tearing my gut open And riping me in two, You place your hands on my shoulders, Holding

That glint in your eye, Trying to hide the darkness; That cheeky smile, I can't help but love; The pain in your heart, You say you're okay, But I know better. That passing thought, I know it's there. Contentment and hate, Both unfair. To hear your voice, A reminder of mine. To speak your name, A gilded tongue; An overwhelming fall, To stay or run. To stay or run. To stay. To run. To stay.

Dark of the night, Star bright, Star light. The wolf stalks. The wolf waits. Seeks shelter, Too late. Catch and release, Hunters unsheathe. Blind trust, Unseen, Off the path, Careen.

Once again In my head; My conscious pleading, Go to bed. Tasteless dreams, Hapless nights, Desperate calls To dying light. Never ending, Song of soul; Please, I'm begging, Let me know. Bones beneath, Shattered highs, Life begun, Life denied. Take my hand, These thoughts ne'er end. Walk with me Cleanse my sins.

Why can't I run? I am strong... I am weak. I fear. Where is the happiness? You. We. Me. How can time be so cruel? To change would be a lie, To faulter, a truth. Terrible truth. Who would fall first? I am not alone. You came willingly. Sing your denial to me. When will you leave like the others? I keep you close. In my mind you flee. Alone again. Is it enough to keep going? Take me with you. Be strong for me When I crumble. Don't you want it, too? You do. But... Why?

Play them. Play my heartstrings. I let you in. Pick the chords Until they break, Snap like bones. Play the notes I can't quite brave, A melody of reality. Turn this break, This fall, around. Catch me, brother, I want to be found. Hear the plea of my soul, A symphony, Concerto of the highest difficulty. Don't make me beg. Don't leave. I fear forever without you. My confidant, Don't let me drown, This river of notes, Rocks abound, Hit my head, No more sound.

Lost. Desperate. Pleading. Darkness. To run, To fight. To break, To fall. Bleeding. Pain. Bruises. Scars. To burn, To melt. To move, To drown. Beating. Living. Rhythm. Found.

Blank pages staring at me, I've no words to express What's haunting me. Utterly lost In the chaos of my thoughts, A melody of secrets Known only to myself And my reflection. Watching the fire Flicker to life. Poking the flames, Avoiding embers, Hot to the touch. I'm not alone. My reflection's hand Is outreached. The flames like our fingers, On the verge of melting, Fire and ice, A burning combination. Terrible consequences, Evaded in our dreams, A shade of darkness Remains unseen. I light a candle To guide my path. My reflection walks beside me Flame in hand, Ready to relight My dying light When the shadows grow long And the dark becomes l

Time passed. An eternity, a never ending hourglass, crammed inside of a month, a few weeks, days. Incapable of understanding, quantifying what unfolded, I grew utterly frustrated. I saw a mirror, a different version of myself reflected in the pool of his eyes. I looked at him, and he looked at me. We both knew without speaking. We had fallen off the precipice, the top of the world, onto thin ice. Neither wanted to be alone, but neither wanted to move. Frozen in fear of consequences, we shivered, holding each other tightly as if in recognition of our unspoken secret. I was scared, scared to let him go that he might disappear forever, a piece

You and I need each other To remind ourselves That we are Who we are. Alive In the moment, We both know what is in store. The inevitable questions Of when it will end, How long will it last? Will I someday think of you As my past? Hold onto me longer next time. Don't Let Go. Let's grow old. Your breath on my cheek Is all I need To delay the ominous fate That chains my feet. It tries to pull me along, And I fall to my knees, My arms around your waist, Come with me, Hold on! This adventure has just begun. Take my hand And come along. I need to know If you'll come with me Or if my memories Will have to last me. I need you more Than you need me,